Nick.....

you dont know how much you truly mean to me, im numb towards you. you scare me in the many ways i liked to be scared. if only you knew me, the me i know youd love to adore. you may be numb as well towards my words of thoughts if i ever told you the truth. your so beautiful to me, in ways i can only imagin i could never speak to you of. your smile makes me melt, the sound of your voice makes me quiver. you make me ill, ill in love, ill to know i could never feel your warm tender hands on my cold skin of lonelyness. to have never felt the whisper of your rish low voice speaking inside my ear, whispering sounds of foolish love, fresh and clean. to never have been held in your body so strong, so manly. your the apple of my eye, your the sore of my heart that aches everytime your near, everytime you lay your hands upon my shoulder i wish to lay on top of you to kiss your italian body, to have you wrap yourself upon me, kissing my breast, and to hear your heart beat when we awake from making love on the bed you sleep on. to have us talk randomly every day would be a buckle of gold for me. yet im here typing the thoughts that shall forever linger in the dust of dawn. we talk now, yet only in riddles, we touch now but only in pureness of a lingering black depth of nothing, we look into each other but only in blankness of pure cold. we smile now but only in pure sadness and boldness, we are no more but friends and thats that, never will be pure lust in our life. i wish you well my fellow soulmate for i shall wait for you in my thoughts of pure sanity in which id never be able to tell you face to face death in love. you are my true love, and shall forever be my first love. dear love of my imagination....speak upon me now dear love of my imagination